My poem about Carol

Poem for Carol –aug 2014

I am having one of those days

Looking at pictures and saying your name.

Carol, Carol, Carol….. that smile of yours

How can it be?  Is it even bigger on your face?  

I really know the answer –it has got to be-- because it was worn so much

And now it is in God’s presence  and it can only be brighter

It is right where it belongs…spread wide because of HIS grace—

And I bet it is singing a song!

You know that while you were alive

I was so proud of all you accomplished

I made some noise and made it known (and to you it was no surprise)

Yeah,  I was the proudest mom and I wanted to be recognized

As the mom of the one out there on the basketball floor

Making things happen no matter what the score.

I never did write you a poem while you walked this earth

Maybe ‘cause I was too busy traveling all over the place

(watching you do everything good, I don’t want any of it to be erased)

And now it is later, you have gone away from here

Made your life with cooper and a business with cell phones

A dog, new friends, and college to go along.

And then …unexpectedly..you were gone.

No longer an earthly  beacon of encouragement but to heaven you went home.

How could that happened?  I thought you’d live to be a ripe old age

But I guess God had other plans and he needed you in heaven---

I don’t know why  He didn’t ask me if it was OK.

So I sit here and look at pictures of you,

My daughter, my friend, the one I thought would see me to the end

You were the one….. made from my very being

 ….my heart,

……….my soul….

……….my song

….gone too soon, …

………………………. my heart not only hurts—it aches.

  Will it ever be the same?  Please God, I can’t take this pain.  

At other times , I can thank God for the 19 years of wonderment

That your life filled us with

And I hope one day God will say to me….

“Good job, Judy! on raising this one.”

You just thought she was easy, but she had challenges

Yet she made the best of them because she knew my Son.”

I want you to know, Carol,  I am more than happy that you were married

To that  awesome guy , Cooper …who made you happier than I could have believed.

Your life was so full, how could any of us want it to stop?

So many  questions come to my mind, and I try not to  ask “why?”

Because I know even if I had an answer ….the hurt of losing you would still be alive.

So I carry this burden until l die

When I know we will be reunited and I’ll no longer cry

And maybe all the questions will be forgotten when I look into my Father’s eyes

And I am reminded that I am in GOD's presence and no more tears will flow

And  all my heart will want to do is sing and praise HIM so.

After which He might say “Here is someone who you have been waiting to see

A special angel nmedCarol!! And to her HE will say "Look who is here!!!

It ‘s your MOM and  she is still so very proud!!!!”

At that time..when I see you in the midst of GOD’s glory my heart will be whole again..

I can imagine how much brighter your smile will be

As I hug you and kiss you and I’ll  feel at right at home

And we’ll laugh together forever

When you say to me “Mom, for once could you be ‘on time?’ I thought you’d never get here!
 I’m so glad you’re here now…and we can let the party begin!!!”

And then I can just hear you  say “let me go get the others”

And you’ll return, escorting my family and friends to greet me…..

Exclaiming, “Look ! Mom is here!”

Oh how my heart will soar with joy

As the reunion that has just started  and will go on forever more.!

Judy Hensley

Aug 22, 2014

Our daughter Carol Hensley Singletary died in Feb 2013 in a tragic accident at her workplace.   She was 19 years old and just been married 6 months to Cooper Singletary.  It has been almost 3 very hard years, but my hope comes from knowing she is in God’s presence and waiting for us to join her.  Rom 8l38-39